​I gave myself too much leeway the last nine months. I became so wrapped up in minute by minute minutia I lost focus. Perhaps it was the rush of last year post wedding. We experienced a fairytale and returned to New York to a whirlwind of speeding time that consisted of business trips, immigration interviews, a new job, and an apartment and borough move. Time was rushing, racing, flying, and then the world came to a screeching halt on March 13 and all the balls I was juggling remained suspended in the air, and I slowly raised my head to examine them.
 
Then three months of quarantine passed, and there was no excuse not to write. But though the three months stretched, they also flew, and days turned into weeks and no thoughts made their way out of my head and onto paper. Time stood still and there was nowhere to go, but the writing muscles became atrophied and the motivation faded.
 
“Regular life” started to pick back up and before I knew it, it was July 3rd. Hamilton came out on Disney Plus and I streamed it along with millions of others. The music spoke to me through its genius, poignancy, humor, and truth. One song’s chorus chanted “Why do you write like you’re running out of time?” And I was jolted awake. We are all running out of time, each minute, each day. Why have I let this strange time in history push me to sleep?
 
So I thought, what should I write about? I took the first step and recognized I have no time, I’ve got to write again - but I doubted I had anything valid to share.
 
But I do, if I continue to notice the small things.
 
Murat and I wanted to take a walk in Brooklyn yesterday, and being new to the neighborhood and the borough I Googled where to go. I found the Brooklyn Heights Promenade and thousands of users had shared their reviews touting the loveliness of the park.  One review stopped me in my tracks and stayed with me all day. They wrote, “It remind me holding my woman,s hand making me feel so important.” The purity of this statement made me cry. My heart swelled thinking about this person, and the feelings this place stirred in them.
 
Murat and I stepped out into the 90 degree heat and began walking the promenade. We found stunning views and a walk we had no idea existed so close to our new neighborhood. As we turned around and began to head back, I took Murat’s hand. He gave me an audible, ‘aww’ and a firm squeeze. I too, felt important, and I think so did he. My tears flickered again, with the human privilege of feeling important and reciprocating that feeling to someone I love. 

My wedding website says that I have 31 days until the big day. I’ve never particularly liked countdowns.  They make me feel as though I am ticking my life away, making me forget that it’s not just the milestones in life that matter, but the moments in between.  I dislike putting so much weight onto one day, event, or holiday.  Countdowns make them so exceptionally fleeting, they become immediately replaced with nostalgia and a framed photograph or Facebook memory. 

For me, Fiddler on the Roof is the rare piece of art that evokes nostalgia without schmaltz, and somehow incites a myriad of emotions every time you see it.  This production, even more so than others, stung my eyes with tears and caught in my throat the moment the company stepped onstage singing “Tradition” (or “Traditsye”).   The emotion, which is always there in the show, was brought to new levels of realness, feeling, and understanding in this particular revival.   
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​My tears hardly stopped during the entirety of the production.  Whether out of laughter due to a babbling matchmaker, sentimentality as the company sang “Sunrise, Sunset,” heartache for a community grappling with religious persecution, or even just the sheer sweetness of a poor tailor finally saving enough money to get a sewing machine, my cheeks were rarely dry.

The set, while minimal, was stunning, as though parchments of the Torah hung around each corner of the stage, a constant reminder of the characters’ faith, and the solid foundation on which they built their lives.  Subtitles were extremely well done and unobtrusive, on each side panel of the stage. 
 
It naturally makes sense to tell the story of A Fiddler on the Roof right now. The history should never be forgotten, but we are sadly seeing it repeated day after day through religious persecution, uprooting of families, and fear and bigotry of “the other” all over the world, and close to home.  A Fiddler on the Roof shows us just how similar we all are, as a family that could easily be my own or my neighbor grapples with tales as old as time -  letting go of the past, embracing the future, and making sense and balance of the two.  Last week, there were points when I didn’t even feel like I was watching a show.  The performance solely in Yiddish made me feel as though I was peering into a window, observing a day in the life of a regular family bound to a tragic fate.  Rejoicing at their triumphs, laughing at their jokes, and desperately wanting to protect them from the tragedies and anti-Semitism they were forced to endure.
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A Fidler Afn Dakh was one of the best productions I’ve seen in a very long time.  The show’s three hours moves at a remarkably brisk pace, is bursting with musical theatre greats in acting, voice, and dance, and reminds us of where we’ve come from, and the journeys that still lie ahead.

​When do you finally concede defeat, walk away, or as the English say, “give it up as a bad job?”  Murat and I are at a breaking point over something that we thought should be exceedingly simple. 

We have encountered over six months of thwarted attempts to add Murat, my husband, to my bank account.  As we are married and live together, it is hard to imagine something like this would be difficult. 

When Murat arrived in the US, we wanted to add his name to my bank account, so he would have access to our funds and his own debit card in the US.  I’m sure you are thinking, “well, that does not seem like an unusual or odd request.”  However, the series of unfortunate events below is instead what our young, foolhardy selves have been subjected to, the bureaucratic process and red tape mountains aging us beyond our years…

1. December, 2018: I go Chase as a mere exploratory excursion, to find out what would be needed from Murat and myself to add him to my account.  ‘Quite easily done,’ a man told me.  Your fiancé (as Murat was at the time) just needs to bring in his passport.
   
   
2. December, 2018: Murat and I return to Chase the next day, armed with a passport and an eagerness to make this momentous step in our relationship.  The banker helping us, stops.  "A passport is not enough to add someone to your bank account.  They also need proof of residence."  We have none yet, so we get to work on adding Murat to everything we share together – lease, bills, return address labels, joint custody of a stuffed animal named Harry, etc.
   
   
3. January, 2019: We visit Chase after our marriage at City Hall.  We now have proof of residence through the marriage certificate and have added Murat to the lease.  Bouncing in as a newlywed couple, with fool-proof paperwork in hand, we think - "now is the moment.  Murat will walk out with a new bank account!" But, what?  A marriage license and lease are not good enough proofs of residence?  I repeat - A MARRIAGE CERTIFICATE AND LEASE ARE NOT GOOD ENOUGH FORMS FOR PROOF OF RESIDENCE.  Defeated and frustrated, we robotically ask what would be appropriate forms of proof.  A cable bill, electric bill, or a statement from another bank addressed to Murat at our new home would do the trick.
   
   
4. March, 2019: Murat gets a letter from his UK bank to our NYC address.  As we have not yet had luck adding him to our utilities accounts (another story for another day), we take the UK bank letter to Chase.  But as we sit with the Banker, our dreams are again dashed.  It is not enough that the bank sent a letter to Murat. They needed to send him a statement, with his funds and transactions listed.  Is this a bad joke we are not in on?
   
   
5. April, 2019: After months of back and forth with Con Edison, we receive a letter that states Murat is now added on to the account.  It has his name, our address, the name of the electric company.  But now, I am not so naïve.  I will not be the doe-eyed little girl any longer!  I am on to wily ways of Chase!  So before I drag Murat to Chase for a fifth time, I first go in with the letter on my way home from work.  I show the Banker.  I tell her I am tired of being turned away, and want to know, will this work?  She says yes…
   
   
6. April, 2019: The next day, we return to Chase with the Con Edison paperwork.  We are sitting the comfortable armchairs of the Banker’s office, ready to walk out victorious.  The Banker, the same one who had just yesterday approved the document, takes the letter to her colleague to ask a question.  When she returns, I restrained myself from clawing at her.  “Unfortunately this is not a bill, it’s only a letter saying that Murat is now on your electric account.  We need a bill.”  Writhing and kicking, Murat pulls me out of Chase before I start turning over computers.
   
   
7. June 11, 2019: We are weary, battle-wounded, and broken.  Nevertheless, we persist, and arrive at Chase with
   1. Passports
   2. Bills from Spectrum
   3. Bills from Con Edison
   4. Murat’s Employment Authorization card
   5. Murat’s Social Security card
   6. An accordion file filled with anything else we feel they might possibly ask us for, just in case.

We are doing it.  Murat is asked to create a username and password for online banking.  He is asked to create a PIN number.  He is asked for confirmation of address to send his new debit card.  We. Are. Doing. It.

And then…the Banker looks concerned.  She asked Murat to input his information again, since the computer froze.  He does, and she gives us the same pitiful look as just a moment ago.  A fellow Banker comes over and asks ours if “she’s also having problems with the system.  It seems like it’s down.”  Our Banker asks us to wait while she tries to sort out what’s happening.  When she returns, she hands Murat a water bottle for his troubles.  He looks at her puzzled, and she informs him that she is “so sorry, but the systems have just gone down, and we can’t complete the steps needed to have him join my account.” 
 
Do we cry?  No.  Although our stomachs churn and our hearts sink, we are not that surprised.  We laugh in the face of adversity and look forward to using a new water bottle!  Ahhh, the spoils of war.
 
Perhaps the Banker recognizes the deadness behind our eyes, and sees remnants of a once young, care-free couple.  She offers to make an appointment with her for two days later, and assures us that upon return, she will help us complete the mission we set on so very long ago.
 
We will return.  We will not give up.  But I’m becoming slightly worried and convinced that there is a higher power doing whatever it can to stop us from completing this task.  I can’t help but wonder, should we listen to the signs? 

​High rent, high transport fees, high grocery bills, and way too highly priced cocktails are what you expect and undoubtedly encounter in the city that never sleeps.  But despite the ever-climbing prices and cost of living, there is something the city offers often for free if you actively seek it out, and that’s culture!
 
Last weekend we went to the Lincoln Center Campus for an amazing day of free performances.  Lincoln Center hosted a ‘block party’ to celebrate their the 60th Anniversary; it was fabulous.  

Despite the lack of kitchen space in our lovely hobbit hole, we still manage to get creative and enjoy finding and trying new recipes.  Right now, it doesn't matter that our shelves are at maximum capacity, and that the top of the fridge, above the cabinets, underneath the bed, and all manner of nooks and crannies have become storage centers for dishware and dry goods.  We're learning to live with that, and know that more space will come soon enough.  Luckily we are both organized and borderline anal-retentive, so we manage to fit everything into the tiny spaces like a puzzle.

The other night, I made sweet potato and black bean tacos.  It was my second time making it, and now I've confirmed that it's a recipe that will be used over and over again.  It's easy, it's healthy, it's delicious, and - you get to eat a burrito (or several) for dinner.  Could there be any other result besides absolute enjoyment when dinner includes tortillas and guacamole? 

A couple weeks ago we were visited by a film crew in our little hobbit hole.  No, there was no nearby robbery, neighborhood fire, or transportation delay that needed locals to spew their commentary.  The camera crew arrived due to, none other, than my brussels sprouts video!
Earlier last month Misfts had a promotion on Instagram that encouraged customers to share with the company why they subscribed to Ugly Produce.  Once you shared your thoughts, you would be placed in a raffle to win a free veggie box.  That sounded like a good deal to me, and I hoped my brussels sprouts video would give me an edge in the raffle!  
Two or three weeks went by, and I completely forgot about submitting my brussels adventure for the raffle.  It was quite a surprise when I opened my inbox and found an email from the Misfits Head of Marketing.  She told was going to be featured on a Reuters report, and asked if I would like to be a part of it. 
Two days later we had a reporter and cameraman at our door.  I think they were slightly taken aback by the size of the tiny home, but we made it work.  A lot of footage was taken and many questions were asked for a very short sound byte, but the time spent was fun and interesting.  We also ended up getting a free veggie box, as they sent one over for the shoot.  I may not have won it in a raffle, but the end result was just the same! 

Click the pic to be taken to the report! 

​As one who lives to eat, I’ve never understood those who eat to live.  My relationship with food is a joyous one, and my life is enhanced by experiences at restaurants and family made home-cooked meals that give you both permission and encouragement to take seconds, then thirds. 
 
Despite my love affair with food and my constant thought of ‘when will I eat next?,’ I never felt at home in the kitchen or comfortable doing the cooking myself.  It even made me slightly anxious, and often left me paralyzed with visions of smoking pots and fires in the oven, quickly followed by me grabbing my phone to order take out.  Suddenly, in the last few months I’ve come around to the idea of experimenting in the kitchen, and I’ve found I really enjoy it!  Often when I begin, I have no idea how a recipe will turn out and have many doubts regarding my culinary abilities mid-way through, but most of the time, it actually turns out very delicious.
 
I’ve been documenting some of my trials (and errors) and wanted to share my adventure in Brussels (spouts) that happened a few weeks ago.

I've since made this recipe again and they came out just as delicious.  Even Murat, who swore up and down he'd never eat brussel due to traumatizing childhood memories involving boiling the offensive vegetable,  took seconds.  High praise indeed!

Do you ever have a moment where you just feel like you truly belong somewhere?   Something about a place speaks to you, and makes you feel at “home.”  I’ve had that beautiful feeling with Greece each time I have visited, and my love affair with the country just grows exponentially. 

Like a siren call, I keep getting pulled back to the country on the sparkling Aegean Sea.  Family vacations, a semester aboard, my three years aboard a cruise ship, and soon my own wedding this coming September have ensured I keep returning to this magical and special place.  

After seeing it was Greek Independence Day on March 25th, I've been reminiscing all week about my time spent in Greece, and wanted to share ten special and funny memories.

10. ​My 25th birthday coincidentally falling on the day Seabourn docked in Mykonos.  I spent all day exploring each beach and every every nook and cranny of the island on an ATV.  It was magic.

9. Being put in a different Mykonos hotel with my fiance on vacation because the hotel we booked wasn’t actually ready for the season yet.  At check in, there was a gallant attempt to distract us from this error by the Receptionist's constant promotion of their not one, but TWO shopping boutiques on the hotel premises!

8. Celebrating Greek Easter with my family during my first trip to Greece, and feeling fascinated and familiar with the country all at once. ​​

​7. Finding ourselves adrift...Navigating the ferry system in Athens to find a way to Santorini with my best friend.  We had booked a flight, but the planes were grounded due to...what else? A strike!

6. ​Testing out bathrobes at three different hotels with my fiancé while trying to determine where we should have our wedding.  By the way, we did not make our decision solely based on this criteria. 

5. The many school trips while studying abroad, including a visit to Meteora which ended in us stranded on the mountaintop for hours after the bus broke down!

4. Strolling along the Thessaloniki boardwalk on a nearly daily basis during my semester there.

3. Discovering the port of Spetses with my mom, when she visited me while I worked on Seabourn. 

2. Needing to get back the ship when the shuttle bus was nowhere to be found, and hitching a ride on the back of a local Myconian’s trailer.

1. Hiking the caldera in Santorini, then swimming in the Sulphur pools.

Many more memories to come, especially after the very exciting event happens this September!  Maybe one day I'll end up running an inn there like Donna in Mamma Mia....here's hoping! 

​It’s hard to believe, but two years ago, I was moving into my studio and ultimate bachelorette pad in Melbourne. 
 
Some of the happiest memories and most cherished moments of my life happened during my 1-year sabbatical when I quit my job, minimized my belongings, and moved 10,500 miles from home. The land was far and foreign, I didn’t know anyone, and I would be living by myself for essentially the first time.  At least I knew the language would be the same (relatively speaking…).
 
I had sailed through Melbourne several times with my job aboard Seabourn, and felt ‘good vibes’ each time we were in port.  I found the food excellent, the people friendly, and the arts scene flourishing.  What better time than in my twenties to see what the other side of the world had to offer and find out if the toilets did indeed flush the other way?  Moving to Melbourne felt like going into uncharted, land-of-opportunity territory.

Viewing an apartment felt a lot like being back at auditions.  Swarms of people crowded into the tiny spaces though this time, instead of holding headshots they clutched rental applications.  It was a meat market.  Each renter was surreptitiously sizing one another up, and working hard to prove they were the worthiest of candidates. 
 
I know that luck had a lot to do with me getting the apartment I wanted.  I found one that I absolutely adored but was almost sure that I wouldn’t make the cut.  When I arrived at my soon-to-be dream home, I was breathing heavy and red-faced, having rushed over from another open house.  I felt sheepish, highly embarrassed, and deflated when I looked around and saw the other apartment viewers sporting well tailored blazers, high end shoes, and perfectly coiffed hair.  Nevertheless, I pushed back my shoulders and muscled my way in to the apartment.  It was the perfect studio: furnished, in a fantastic neighborhood, tons of sneaky storage, and even had a washer and dryer in the unit.  New York definitely didn’t have that in my price range.  I submitted my application immediately and personally called the realtor after submission to try and plead my case in hopes she would put in a good word to the landlord.  So what did luck have to do with landing this apartment?  I was the "chosen candidate" because the landlord was in entertainment, and she saw my website when she received my application.  Little would I have guessed maintaining a website long after auditions were over would be so beneficial to me!

Reminiscing a lot on my happy year of growth in land Down Under.