Every year, the Babson Players alumni group puts on a summer production at Babson College. The show takes place on campus, and since I have not lived near Boston since graduating, I have never been able to participate. As COVID turned life into virtual reality, and our lives became anchored over a computer screen, so did this year's alumni production. An unexpected positive outcome of the virus was that, with no in person rehearsals possible, the Players were pushing forward with their summer show but doing so over Zoom. To my utter delight, I am thrilled to say that for the first time in ten years, I am acting with the Babson Players again as Dromio of Syracuse in The Comedy of Errors. The Players were and are a group that brought me the most joy and the happiest memories during my time in college. Who I became was greatly shaped by that 'club,' which was so much more than that. I distinctly remember that after a long day, knowing a rehearsal would be at the end of it energized me and made me feel like I had somewhere I really belonged. Being on stage felt comfortable, and the people I was surrounded by were kind, fun, and like minded. I was determined to continue my stage pursuit, both during college and after, and moved to New York to carve out a career for myself in theatre. I loved performing and felt compelled to make acting a full time career, but after a few years I began to feel the exhaustion of rejection, and the burnout of taking jobs I didn't really believe in to earn more money and another credit on my resume. Deciding to leave acting made me feel like a weight had been lifted off of my shoulders, and I felt fulfilled in other pursuits and creative career choices. What I wasn't able to realize until now was that just because I moved away from a professional theatre career didn't mean I had to stop doing the thing that gave me the most joy. I could have let go of the hustle, but I didn't' have to walk away from the happiness I felt in channeling different emotions, playing new characters, and (let's be honest) being a general ham. This show has allowed me to let go of any need to 'prove myself' as an artist, and it has brought the fun of theatre back into my life. When this show is over (view it here on July 31 - please tune in!), I'm going to continue to look for other community theatre opportunities, virtually and, once we can start coming together again, in real life. I'm sorry it's taken me this long to figure out that I could leave the stress and keep the fun, but now that I see that I'm not turning back. A family friend of ours (who, incidentally, has had an excellent career in entertainment) once said, "the only bad theatre is no theatre." Time to take that advice for myself.
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Betty
7/22/2020 08:04:58 pm
Love this! So coincidental that I was just reading one of your old blogs today! Can’t wait to see this show and I’m so happy you’ve enjoyed doing it.
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Nazli
7/22/2020 11:33:57 pm
That’s amazing Jacqueline. I’m so happy for you and so glad you decided to go back to doing what you love. Feeding the soul and really doing what delights you is the best one can do for themselves. Looking forward to see your upcoming (and more in the future) performance. Break a leg (or ‘keypad’ in this situation)♥️
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Kristen
7/23/2020 05:20:51 am
I love your blog, love reading your thoughts and reflections. And love seeing your performances. Always amazed and delighted. Please keep sending your beauty and positive energy into the world! ❤️
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Gerilynn
7/26/2020 09:22:35 am
Wow so articulate and honest. If I can support your journey in any way please reach out. So proud and honored to know such a Fabulous lady!!! Meaghan is lucky to have you as a friend!
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8/4/2020 03:36:30 am
I know your my wife! but you were absolutely amazing in your performance, well done Jacqui, loved it and found quite entertaining, he he he
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